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Well, Dustin " doesn't know about us " Wednesday night, when he was here...he took me not wanting him to go badly. Read the last post for details. He says I still have a hard time compromising. This whole fuckin thing upsets me so much. I just wanna be together, and happy. We're awesome together, I dont wanna be without him. I gotta fix this...its tearing me apart. My parents even love him. He makes me incredibly happy...we can work this out...
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[20 Nov 2003|02:21am] |
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Well, Dustin left about 2 hours ago. And he was here last night, too. And, tomorrow night, me and Brandee have show tickets, and hes coming too, lol. I really care about him, ya know? Its fuckin hilarious, too. He met my parents last night...scary, I know...My parents really like him...daddy included. Last night we spent an hour and a half with my mom just bullshitting. And he met daddy. When he was on his way over here tonight, he stopped to help some guy change his tire...and kinda tore up his finger. My mom cleaned him all up. It was soo funny...he was squirming and wiggling when she put the peroxide on. He was all like " It burns! "
He means a lot to me. He kept stealing my cell phone tonight and was all like " holy jesus, its like a mini computer! " I'll admit, I was getting a bit bugged when he started calling people. It was awesome, though. I was all wrapped up in his arms against his chest...and he had his chin on my head...and his arms wrapped around me, playing with my cell phone lol.
Theres a lot of incredible things about him. And he is, hands down, the most gorgeous guy when he smiles. Lol, I'm acting like I'm 14 again. I called him today when I got out of class...he was all gunho when I said I wanted to see him tonight. We ended up going out to dinner, and he called, and the stupid Firebird wouldnt start. Lol, I was bummed, of course I wanted to see him. But, ya know, he has got to be the most awesome guy. He talked his roommate into letting him borrow his truck just so he could come see me. He was only here for 45mins or so...and I was a bit bummed when he had to go...Nate had to be at work by 1am...and Dustin didnt wanna just be strolling in with the truck right before Nate had to go. I was upset he had to go...It bugged him a little that I didn't let him go when he had to...but he wasnt mad...I dont think. I hope not.
I love everything about him. The way he looks at me. It was incredible...right before he left...he rubbed my cheek and kissed me and told me he loved me.
I'm happy...really happy...Lauren said something awesome to me yesterday. We were talking about me actually settling down some day with just one person...and not my multiples of " boy toys " lol. She said something like..." You need stability in life. You need someone there for you when your parents aren't. " And I found him. I love my Lauren, and I love my Dustin.
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| I'm like Chucky, you can't fuckin get rid of me. |
[17 Nov 2003|11:57pm] |
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Yes, I know I havent posted since fuck knows when, but right now...whatever. Kara actually took my journal away because of my lack of posting, but Lauren scored it back for me, Yay. Thanks. A lot has happened since October 5th, when I last posted. Me and Dustin broke up. We missed our anniversary on the 28th...so that was like...3 weeks ago. He actually is supposed to come over tonight...if and when he does, we're getting back together, I dunno. Weirdness. I miss him...and I need him. Lol, that was weird of me to say...I -need- someone. Needing people only fucks you up emotionally. I don't get attached. I don't fall too hard. Nothing. I have a whole cell phone of boys to call when I wanna be worshipped. After I get my fill, I hang up. Sure, it might be horrible, but I don't get hurt. But now thats backfired...it hurts because I dont have anyone.
I failed my drive test for a second time. The first time, wasnt my fault, and had to appeal it...I won and got it taken off of my record. The second time, 2 weeks ago, someone fuckin hit me. We sat in the office for 20 minutes trying to figure out what to do since someone hit me...through no fault of my own, and I couldnt finish the test. They failed me anyway. Who the fuck cares. I sure as hell don't. I'm gonna firebomb the DMV as soon as I can get explosives high powered enough.
Me and Brandee have been going out a lot. I think the abortion thing got us close...ha...and 4 years ago I fuckin hated her guts. We went to the Rodeo...yes, I, Angela Adele Goduti, went to a rodeo. It was a lot of fun. Last Tuesday we went out...because of Veterans day, we both had a very rare day of no work or school. We won tickets to Ronn Lucas...some ventriquilist ( sp? ) at the Rio. He was damn funny, especially for a free show. I recommend him. He was baggin on Henderson people, so a good time was had by all ( except them Henderson people. ) God, I can't fuckin stand my mother...I'll eleborate later on. Then we met up with Ray for dinner. We were gettign a little freaky in his car...but he doesn't want a relationship...more like a fuck buddy. Lord knows I don't want that...so, everytime we get close, I back off, because I know that all he wants.
Steve from MMG has caused a whole buncha shit lately. Hes been telling me, Lauren and this other girl Liz all the same bullshit. Same bullshit ie..." I love you. " " I wanna be with you " " I wanna take things to the next level with you. " We all figured out...and I guess out of all 3 of us I'm the most mouthy, outgoing...so I was the one who confronted him. He took offense to it, for whatever reason, and was all pissed off at me...Lord knows he had no right. But whatthefuckever. He's another one who can go fuck himself. As time goes on...there are VERY FEW people I can tolerate on a regular basis. He is quickly removing himself from that list. Fuck...I want Dustin here...where the hell is he? If he hasnt left by now...I can't see him. Its already midnight...he lives in Summerlin...it'll take him 45 mins to get here.
Last night, we all went to Arpine's house for a Swarovski staff meeting and to watch videos from her wedding, since none of us were able to go. Once my manager, Suzanne, and another older lady left, the alcohol was busted out. I guess the running thing was, since I'm the baby," lets see how toasted we can get Angela " I started with a cranberry and vodka...and that did nothing for me...so I started just doing shots of the Vodka. Then Arpine's husband Nick was all like " You cant handle this stuff " and took out a bottle of Cognac. My dad drinks it, I think its nasty and tastes like rubbing alcohol...but I proved him wrong and had about 8 shots. Then they hand me a bag and said it was a present...low and behold, its a brand new bottle of Hypnotic. I was excited and ended up hoarding the thing to myself and drank about 75% of it. I was pretty wasted...but it didntlast long enough...I had sobered up enough to have a conversation with my mother when I got home. Bitch didnt suspect damn shit. The way I'm feeling now...I wish I had finished that bottle of Hypnotic...See what alcohol posioning really feels like.
I just kinda lost my ambition to post...expecially about my mother and all shes done to me and put me through...she can go fuck herself...my time is too valuable to post about her.
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[05 Oct 2003|06:22pm] |
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Yeah, I've gotten a lot of finger wagging from Lauren in the past few weeks because of my neglect to this thing. I just can't even begin to explain how busy I've been these last few weeks. Today is actually my first day in like...5 weeks that I didnt have work or school. Last couple of weeks, our other store in the Aladdin has been pretty short staffed, and is relying on me to help em out on days I don't work/get off early. I was soo psyched for this weekend, Saturday and Sunday...absolutely NOTHING to do...well, Friday, after I got off work, I ended up coming home and falling asleep. I get woken up with Elvira ( The Ast. Manager of our Aladdin store ) on the phone. Shes sick as a dog, and asks me to cover her shift for Saturday. I agree, and hang up, and then realize she has THE WORST schedule in the fuckin world. For whatever reason, she thinks if she works 4pm - 12:30am she has more time with her kids. So yeah, last night, I work from 4 to almost 1am. It was bad, by like, 10:30, I start nodding off standing up. So, end of the night comes, and I start counting my drawer, which must have been hilarious. I'm like " 1...2...3...7...13...48 " Took me like 20 mins to cash out, crazyness.
Some drama, as usual. I'm a lot like Lauren, both of us somehow get involved in all this crap, that most of the time, has absolutely NOTHING to do with us. My friend Brandee, who I have actually known for like...4 years, but lost touch with after I went to Coronado ( She ended up having english class with me in college )Just came up pregnant. She'll be 19 in a few weeks, and can totally go through with this, but she doesnt want to. Shes 14 weeks along, and just found out...and is convinced abortion is the only way. I'm all about choice, but also know I wouldnt be able to handle it. And I know Brandee well enough, she'll beable to get through it just long enough to get it down. Within a few weeks, she'llwish she was dead. Its her decision, she can do whatever she wants, but shes convinced its her only option. She saysshe cant tell her mother,even though one time her mother assured her if anything happened, she could come to her. Well, Brandees step father owns Gaudin Ford, and is pretty powerful/domineering...and she says herm other has gotten too used to the millionaire lifestyle...with the dinner parties and comp'd tickets...enough towhere she'kll turn her back on Brandee just to appease Brandees step father. I dunno, its her mother, maybe I'm just naive and think that just because its her mother, she'll be there for her 110%, no questions asked. Brandee wasnt looking to get into this situation, but it unfortunately happened. I dunno, its her life, she needs to do what she wants. I just wish she would talk to her mother...she needs a more rational opinion...one from someone other than me and 2 or 3 other friends and her boyfriend. I dont like her boyfriend anyway. She likes him, so more power to her, but he already has a 7 year old living in NC who he doesnt see, and he said if she wants to keep the baby, he'll marry her. I'm sorry, but I think thats a dumb reason to get married...because the condom broke. Did I also mention hes 27?
Me and Gianni are over...for good. He said he was in love with me yesterday, and I think that hrut more than anything. How could he claim to care soo much, and then act the way he does? Unfortunately, everyone I know, knows Gianni, including this kid James. Now, a few months ago, James was saying some shit about Gianni...which led me to question a helluva lot about Gianni. Gianni denied it, and of course, I believed him, and told this kid James to fuck off and die for lying to me. Gianni is perfect, he wouldnt hurt me. -Eye roll- Well anyway, on Thursday, when I talked to Gianni, he said he was moving to San Jose, and it was kinda gonna be permanent...then I got some bullshit line of howhe " doesnt know me anymore, and maybe our paths will cross again " which pissed me off. So, Friday night I was going through some shit and found James number again...and called for the hell of it. Of course, Gianni came up, and James said he knew he was going some where for a few weeks, but as far as he knows, hes coming back. Hell, he even had plans to hang out with Gianni friday night, even though he told me he was leaving for SJ Friday morning. I dunno, I'm in love with Gianni, and I will be for a long time...but if he came back right now and apologized, it would hurt too much to keep him around. Luckily, I've been soo busy, I havent thought much about it...But today, just hanging around the house, it REALLY got to me. I'm sick of his shit, and every other guys shit. It was supposed to be different with him, why wasnt it?
Me and Lauren met this kid Gary a while ago when I was buying sunglasses from him. This is literally before school started. We got talking about the Fashion Show, and I told him I worked in Swarovski. Well, about a month ago, he showed up. When he came in, I was downstairs bringing the morning deposit down. So, I comeback up,and am like...what the fuck ishe doing here, ya know? So we talk for like...15-20 mins...meanwhile hes pretty fuckin coked up...which is bullshit...you dont go into someones workplace high, its disrespectful. So, after he left, I'm talking to Marianne and Aaron just like " so was he waiting long before I came up? " Usual questions. During the day, both of them pulled me aside. I guess when he walked in, they came out of the backroom and he proceeded to say " Is Angie here? Short, blonde hair, huge tits " And he made hand gestures! HAND GESTURES! I'm cool with everyone I work with...we've gone out and partied...been over each others houses...Besides Suzanne and Stephanie, were all pretty young. Aarons 24, Marianne is 22, and Arpine is 25...Hell, Arpine was even at the Adema MMG show with us. But still, he doesnt know that, and he had NO RIGHT saying something like that...to anyone, especially my co workers. Well, a few weeks ago, me and Lauren happened to be at the Galleria, and I confonted him. He was scared shitless, and denied it all, as I figured he would. He tried to use every bullshit line, even some shit about a conspiracy with a girl who works 3 stores down, that has NOTHING to do with anything. When we walked away from him, I even think Laurens first words to me were something like " Yeah, hes still fuckin lying " It was that obvious. Whatever, not like he was someone I was interested in seeing again anyway.
I think I have a new boyfriend. It stems from my bad habit of yessing people to death when Im not in the mood or distratced. His name is Dustin, hes hot, a cool guy...but bugs me sometimes. I'm not complaining about where we stand...But I'm attracted to a few other guys...and thats not cool when you're dating someone.
Well, was that sufficient enough, Lauren? lol
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[04 Sep 2003|11:32pm] |
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Well, the first week of school has come to a close. I do enjoy it, but Kara was right, it is a lot like HS. But the fact that it ISN’T HS is what is making it better. My classes are good, I just have this ridiculous break between 2 of em. Psych goes from 12:30 – 1:50….and English, my next class, doesn’t start until 4:30. I wanna put a 5th class in there, just to get rid of it. I want like…Sosc, or CRJ, or WS…or pretty much the frig anything just to fill the space, those are just my top choices. -Shrug- I tried going in early today to meet with a counselor today, but it decided to rain, and flood EVERYTHING. The usual 15 – 20 minute driver took almost an hour and a half today. By the time I got there, I had like…10 mins to spare before English. They actually cancelled my psych class for today…so I got to sleep in, yayness for angemela. But theres a new boy in my Comm class…its muy prettiful…and I think hes Italian lol.
Well, between work and school, I won’t have a day off for the next 2 – 3 weeks. I think when I actually do get one, I dunno what I’ll do with myself. But, week after next, I only work 6 hours, which fuckin pisses me off to NO END. I’m just totally mentally and physically drained.
Last night me and Lauren were walking up Silverado Ranch cause we were going to Panda…and like..a whole buncha guys were hootin, and hollerin, and beeping, and staring at us. I mean, it felt –kinda- good, but at the same time, I felt almost like a cheap 2 dolla whore. Maybe if they approached us, I wouldn’t feel so bad. I would just feel threatened, and like my life was in my hands, but at least I wouldn’t feel like a cheap 2 dolla whore. But I guess any guy who was driving and pulled up alongside a girl who was walking, is a low life and doesn’t deserve my time though, right?
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Still got the pre-college jitters. They need to go the fuck away, class is in like...14 hours, ahhhhh! I honestly can't remember last time I was this nervous. If anything, I got a new laptop out of the whole college experience lol. I've been saying for like...6 months, how much a laptop would help for college. Whether I plan on sitting in class typing away...I dunno. Me and daddy just went to go look at them yesterday, or so I thought. We were leaving the house, and he was all like " Cmon, lets go spend more of my money. " Within 20 minutes of being in the store, I had a laptop, case, and a mouse all picked out. Its muy prettiful.
Its kinda weird, not like high school. HS, I'd go in whatever looked comfy and was thrown on the floor, a quick sweep of mascara, and by the end of the day, my hair would be pulled back. Tonight, I'm putting on green mud, to make my skin pretty, I got a new outfit all picked out. I dunno, maybe that will fade out after the first day. I'm just soo nervous! Gah. David starts tomorrow, too...Maybe I'll run into him and latch on. I just don't wanna be alone, first day. After that, I'm fine. Once I get into my element and my own little niche, I'll be ok. I just need to find my niche.
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[29 Aug 2003|05:22pm] |
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I know, me of all people, is a sad bunnie. I'm kinda depressed lately. Its not that life is -bad- right now, just not exactly where I expected it would be. I'm 18 years old, and in college, and have a job I actually enjoy going to ( aside from my manager ) I just...I dunno.
I miss my lauren. We've been fighting a lot lately, and most of it is my fault. We've never fought like this in 2 years, but like, the past 2 weeks, we've gotten into like...2 or 3 serious arguments. I hate it. I know I make her sad, and I hate it. I hate chicks in general, but lauren, and her sister kara are different. I've never had a sister, or this huge extended family...but the gonzalez family is kinda like that. Her parents are the sweetest people in the world, and me and lauren and kara hang out a lot together and get along good. I don't wanna lose it. No matter how close to me my guy friends are, they're guys...and they wouldnt get half of the crap in my life. Lauren and Kara are both like sisters to me, and I wouldnt hold anything back from them. Hell, I'd rather they were blood, rather than some of the relatives I have now. But me and Lauren got into this argument like...wednesday night, I think, and it hurts. I know it was my fault...I dunno why, but lately I've been like...over sensitive, and I'm kinda taking it out on her. Shit that we could normally say to each other and end up giggling over, is getting me upset, and all teary, I hate it. I joke with everyone, thats who I am, and even I'm upsetting myself. I just kinda sat in my room last night...no computer, tv, music, nothing, and I think I semi figured it out. I'm an adult now. My parents know it and understand it, even though they're not letting on to it, but I get it. All your life, everyone is like " college is such a big thing, you're not a kid anymore " And thats soo sinking in. I know I still live at home, and have it better than most people could ever want, but I still get it. I have bills that come in every month, and it freakin sucks writing out the check for them, lol. School starts full time in a few days. And this is COLLEGE. I can't just fuck off and be like " I'll do it later " and still get kick ass grades. I work a fairly decent amount of hours,and people count on me being there, its not a choice of whether I wanna show up one day or not. I'm scared, and worried, and all kinds of stuff, and I think I've taken it out a bit on everyone, but especially Lauren. And she is, by far, the last person who needs that crap. She doesn't deserve it, and I'm scared that I've really fucked things up this time. I miss her. I'm sorry, lauren, forgive me? I promise I'll be good from now on.
But anyway, I had my first driving school thing yesterday. It wasn't -that bad-. The guy was a little strange, but nice enough. He was like " Yeah, it's quite obvious you know how to drive, you have every habit a seasoned driver has, just all those habits will get you to flunk your test right off the bat. " Did you know, that when you take a right turn on red, you can't just go when its clear with the flow of traffic? You have to come to a complete stop, even if no one is coming, then go. Not even a rolling stop. I guess that right there is grounds for automatic flunking. I gotta brush up on technique before I go for the test. And this goofy " Mirror-directional-mirror-head check-lane change" thing is pissing me off. There honestly isn't that much bullshit aasociated with switching lanes. But I guess " head checks " earn you major brownie points when you go for the test. It just bugs me that the top of the car has this big ass illuminated driving school sign. Then the driving guy made me pull into a gas station and was all like " Now were going to teach you to pump gas " There were these 2 hot guys across from us who were giggling at us. They wernt like, laughing at me, just the whole concept of the guy trying to teach me. He was cool, he let me talk to em for a few, he was like " I know better than to interupt teenage flirting " But anywho.
I talked to Gianni yesterday afternoon. My parents wernt home, so he stopped by. I was like " I would kinda, sorta, really appreciate it, if you stayed in town for a while...I'd miss you a lot if you left " And I shit you not, his exact words were " Ok. Deal. " He said he would stay as long as I wanted him around. I can't believe it. I honestly can't. He makes me really happy. Holy shit, angela could get herself tied down. Crazyness.
I love this song, Lizard Bones. I love Pann's voice, too. I've noticed throughout the cd, how he can change it to fit the song, its very cool. Pann is the Mann. Lol, could I be more of a dork?
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Yeah, I just wanna say, I’m not happy with aol, that’s why I haven’t update in a few. After I typed up a 2 hour post, AOL froze on me and I lost the entire thing. Piss me off, eh? I’m currently typing this in word, so I don’t lose it again, and all the red and green squiggly lines under all my strange typing is really starting to bug me. Ugh.
Anyway, big event of the year…Adema concert was last week. Fuckin rocked…I dunno, I think it was on the same level as GC and NFG –hides from Lauren- Like GC and NFG was a cooler show, but we got “ backstage” at Adema…that shall come later. Motha fuckin goddamned fly. Where the hell is the duct tape!?
Yeah…thank god for word…AOL just crashed…again…
Anyway, we get there like…an hour before doors open, and are only 15 or so people behind in the line, so we were doing good. Fuckin word is correcting my grammar…when I said “we were doing good”, apparently is was supposed to be “ we were doing well” So we finally get in the place, and were like, front row. There was only like…3 little 12 year olds in front of us, but they ended up not being a problem once the show really got going. So the 12 year olds were up against the bar, and we were right behind them, and then I guess there was their little 12 year old friend behind us, who kept trying to be “cool” and somehow get past me, Lauren and kara to get with them. Now, Lauren and Kara are a lot like me, so were just all staring at this kid and like “ what the fuck are you doing?” And this girl Michelle who was behind us…we ended up getting pretty friendly with her, so we hung out all night and she swore at the kid with us.
So…Bentvalve came on…local band, I take it? They were pretty cool, lead singer was kinda hot, music was good. –thumbs up- Then Manmade God came on, and I’m such the biggest fan now. I mean, the guys are really hott ( me, Lauren and Kara are still fighting over who gets James and Steve, but I have a feeling I’m losing this battle lol ) and the music was really kick ass, but they are literally the nicest guys in the world. Not all like “were rich famous rock stars, youre just pee ons, fuck off and die” ya know? We actually talked to em for like…a half hourish.
Next came Spineshank, who I was stoaked for. I knew of em, but never heard any of their music. Plus, Arpine, a girl I work with, is like best friends with their guitarist, Mike. ( So close, Nick, her husband and mike call each other cousins, and like, grew up together ) and she promised to get us backstage. They were all pretty hott, especially Mike…plus they rocked. New Spineshank fan now, too.
So, just before Adema comes on, Arpine finds us, and we meet her sister, and he says to meet us by the tour busses after the show so she can get us back. So, Adema starts, and by now, were all front row, right up against the bar. The crowd goes freakin insane, and were starting to get squished. So, Michelle and Kara are right up against the bar, and Im kinda behind em, but inbetween em…and this psycho ass bitch decides she wants to squeeze in on us. Mind you, she must have been 6’, 250. She tries to start squeezing in between us, and of course, were not gonna let her. Keep in mind, she is like, behind me. So, she uses one hand to reach over my shoulder, and like, grab karas hair and try and pull her away, at the same time, deciding to cut off the flow of blood to my face by becoming intimately close with her elbow pressed to my jugular. We keep tryna squeeze her out, but it isn’t working well, because shes got a ton of height/weight on both me and kara. Now she starts kicking me and grabbing at Karas hair and pull her back. Now we had gotten “ somewhat friendly” with these two guys there, who somehow managed in between me and Lauren. So, I guess the girl now decided to get between me and this one guy, well, when he denied her, she whips off her shirt, and starts pulling out her tits. Me and the guy just started fuckin laughing. I think the guy and his friend end up getting rid of her, after that, we didn’t see her rest of the night. Now, I know concerts, and especially the pits can get a little touchy feely, but this was insane. We named it the Soul Train. You remember that one song that went something like " I see some ladys here tonight that should be having my babies?" Yeah, well, the guys there were acting upon it. Hands were all over our asses, and they were all grinding and shit. But I couldnt see em, I hope they were hot.
So, the concert ends, and I cant even explain how bad we look. Were all drenched in sweat ( mostly other peoples ) Me and Lauren have huge hair…mine ended up needing to be pulled up with a bracelet, it was that bad. Make up is all over the place, clothing ais soaked….and now were going to meet the bands lol
So we first meet the bassist and guitarist from adema, they were awesome. Then we met the guy from Bentvalve, then we meet James and Steve from MMG…they were fuckin awesome, and cute! We got muy piccies of this. We talked to em for like, 30 mins, and they took quite a liking to Lauren. Then we meet MARK CHAVEZ, lead singer of Adema…he was sooo super nice, but couldn’t give us kisses because of his “ babies mom” Piss me off.
So we find Mike from Spineshank, and turns out Arpine had to go home, but was looking for us to give us her VIP pass ( which obviously, we didn’t end up needing ) We talked to him for like an hour. Then there was this whole snafu with some drunk(?) chick and a blind guy…I’m still ab it confuzzled on that, and michelle ended up taking us home.
And Mike called me the next day at work! But that will have to wait, my fingers hurt soo bad right now, plus a hot guy is gonna call. Yay! Ugh, 1,116 words….
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I'm a hyper monkey. I think it's just cause I'm so tired, I'm over tired, ya know? I had a bad freaking day at work, though. Suzanne, my manager is an absolute bitch and likes taking things out on me. Today I was blamed for some big fuck up, that wasn't my fault. At all. You can't blame someone for doing something that wasn't properly explained to them. I've only been there 2 months, and with my Swarovski experience, she just kinda lets me go with it...when it came to company stuff and the computer it was pretty much figure it out on your own. Luckily the other people who work there are all like...under 25, cooler than hell, and have helped me out whenever they can. So yeah, one fo the girls, Marianne, taught me how to do a return, but didnt mention that if the return doesnt complete, the computer will stay in return mode and you have to go back and manually change it. ( Why would you even bring it up? Most people don't treck all the way down to the store to return something, then change their mind a split second before its completed. ) So because of this, I go to ring up the next customer, and don't know its in return mode. So instead of printing me a reciept, I keep getting this weird error message saying it needs the name of the customer before it can finish the transaction.( You need a name for a return ) Aaron didnt know what it was, so I call Suzanne. We figure it out and she tells me to void it out ( Which I find out is something you NEVER do ) and rering the sale, and just put their name where we put the name and address for people who want to be on our mailing list. And she walks me through this, because you need a managers password to override the sale. So when were done, it goes through, and she tells me not to worry about it because its a security feature with the customers credit card...they must have had it stolen or something. She said I, nor the computer, did anything wrong. But when me and Aaron fo to close the store, because of Suzannes fuck up, our numbers arent right. So we call Suzanne and leave a message, and can do nothing but wait until the store opens up today ( This all happens yesterday ) before it can be fixed. like I said, that was yesterday.
I walk into work this morning and Marianne is like " What the hell happened!? " Apparently Suzanne called and is fucking pissed, blaming this on me. luckily Marianne stuck up for me, saying I can't be blamed for something I didnt know/didnt do. Suzanne was the one who told me how to fix it. This woman has a personal score to settle with me. Did I mention what else happened yesterday?
We got a monitor in the store so we can play this Antonio tape. Antonio is Swarovski's annual piece, and this trilogy happens to be the magic of the dance...so the tape is about flamenco dancers and how they carve the crystal. I guess one of the other new girls was playign with it and broke it ( On saturday, my day off ) So Suzanne and her husband came in to try and fix it. Me and Aaron started joking, saying I had broke it. Aaron was all like " Angela sat home on her couch and used her telepathy to break the screen! Shes a witch! " So we were laughing about it, and Suzanne busts out with something like " Don't joke like that Aaron, because if angela had been here, I would be the first one to blame her " And she was dead serious.
It just pisses me off...I've been collecting Swarovski for 12 years, and know more about it than she ever will. She treats me like I NEED to be there, like I cant afford to lose this job. Truth be told, I don't NEED to work anywhere. My parents have more than enough money to support me and dont even want me working, want me focusing on school. They only let me work there because they know how much I love the crystal. Trust me, its not like if I call in sick, I can't afford to pay my cell bill or something. At least I'm not in my late 30's, and am proud of myself for being a retail store manager, who makes $11/hour working with a bunch of kids 25 or under.
You know another reason she dislikes me? I refuse to shove pieces of crystal worth 5 grand down peoples throats. Swarovski is expensive shit, and people arent gonna pay $200 for a piece of " glass " thats the size of a quarter, unless they know what Swarovski is.
If youre my customer, you're going to buy Swarovski because you like it, and want it, not because I jammed something down your throat. Theres nothing worse than pushy salespeople. The funny part is, because of it, I have customers who refuse to deal with anyone ( suzanne included ) except me. I have clients who know my schedule and will only come in when Im working.
But anyway, screw her. In the end, she'll be the one who loses, because the bitch aint sane.
But anywho, I have a new boy! His name is Stephen the monkey man, and he makes me smile, yay! Hes just a really cool guy from Reno. Pretty damn sessy, too! He's made my day better.
I also got into a big fight with Lauren...I think were better, though. No reason to go into details here, though. Were cool people though, we'll get through it.
my fingers hurt from typing about my day...i think I'ma go.
Byee!
Me
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Holy Jebus, I'm a tired monkey-rat. Me and Lauren decided we were bored enough to take a walk, even though it was thunder and lightning out. Well, when it started to rain ( downpour, actually ) we kept walking. We actually walked out, on the main street, the entire rain storm...I mean even our underware was soaked. Then some asshole purpously swerved 10 feet out of his way to drive through a flooded section to soak us. Now we smell like icky sewer. Yummy.
Yesterday and today me and the parents and lauren went to Harleys big 100th anniversary party. It was pretty cool, although today would have been better if it wasnt soo hot/humid and we could actually look around at all the boothes outside. But thats ok, we spent our time chasing this kid Lawrence. Hes gorgeous...spikey dark hair and eyes, 6'3 ish...maybe 200lbs of solid muscle...and covered in tats. Muy Yummy, omg. I think I would sell my left tit to hump him. We finally acted like nerds and got him to pose for a piccie, yayness!
I forgot to tell that I got a new car like...3 weeks ago...its a hyundai xg350 the " mercedes of hyundai " as its been called. I just need a damned license to drive it now, fuck.
We saw Chris the asshole at the movies last night...he KNEW it was me, and he was with his skanky new chickie. I spent the night hiding from him like a dumb ass, only to come home and get an IM from his asking if I had been to the Colonade. I denied it and he was like " Oh ok, never mind. " -sigh- Thank christ. He's too stupid to put 2 and 2 together and figure out that I dont have an EXACT twin who lives where I do. Fine by me, we'll just leave it at that.
Gianni left for his 4 month tattoo convention...he'll be in cali, hawaii, japan and spain. I called him today because he left yesterday morning and I didnt have a chance to say bye...and he was out shopping ( how sweet! ) and I told him I wanted to kick it with him ( There might be a short trip home between cali/hawaii and spain/japan ) and he was like tell me when you wanna hang out, and I said something like...' Well, I need to know when youll be home before we can kick it. Liek I cant say I wanna kick it tomorrow, cause you wont be home, ya know? " And he was like " tomorrow? ok, Ill be home " he pretty much said pick a day, and I'll make sure I'm home. Hes soo awesome...hes like 6', and 220 of pure muscle, has a whole buncha tats and piercings...but like...the SWEETEST, most soft spoken guy in the world. Plus hes all romantic and wants nothing else in the world than to snuggle. I'm going to have this mans children. Yay. Well, until he fucks me over liek the rest of em. -prays to god- please no...not this one too...
Anywho...i think thats enough for tonight...Laurens here and is gonna update hers too...night!
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Well, first off, I have to thank the wonderful Kara for my new journal. For those who know me, you'll know I havent posted in my DJ since like...end of March...holy shit, back when I was a HIGH SCHOOL STUDENT! this one is soo much prettier than my DJ...its got Billy, from GC! Yayness!
Ok, let me get into whats happened in the last 5 months, because my life is soo ultra interesting. -Eye roll- First and foremost, I graduated, holy schmoly, eh? HS was an utter waste of my time, I hated it. Its not like i was this loner or anything, I had a ton of friends and knew half the school, but going to hs didnt accomplish anything. I just hate people more now and think stupid people should fuck off and die. Yay.
So we had the whole clan out here for my graduation...there was 10 people in my house for 2 weeks...two hellish weeks, mind you. I love my little cousins ( theyre 8 and 4 ) but not enough to want to live with them for 2 weeks.
End of May we went to disneyland for Senior class trip...we actually had a blast. They shut the park down and it was just hs kids from all over the west coast from 11pm to 6am...me and Lauren hung out with this kid Matt the entire time...he was hilarious and bought us stuff, and ended up falling for Lauren lol.
Then on May 22nd, me, Lauren, her sister Kara, and her fiance ( ex? ) Bill went to go see MxPx, NFG and GC. It was the BEST concert ever. I love NFG now...they were so kick ass...they were screamign at security guards because they were assholes to all of us. Next week me and Lauren and Kara are going to see Adema, Yay! And we heard that GC is coming back October/November, so were totally going to see that, major Yayness.
Major guy problems. Max and me just can't cut it. Theres a lot of verbal/mental abuse on his end, and I'm sick of not being trusted. That is absolutely no way to have a relationship, so, I'm done, and it flipping hurts. After 2 years of being close to Nick, I ran into his buddy Rowdy, and was informed of all the lies Nick told, which was later confirmed by himself. I mean he lied about EVERYTHING, but claims he didnt lie about being in love with me. Because of this, I don't even know Nick, at all. Theres some new guys, some old ones who have come back. But there are problems with 2 of my favorite ones...ones taking off on a tattoo convention for 4 months, and one is just being plain mean, that hurts too. He claims he isnt, or maybe i'm just a freak, but things don't feel right with him, kinda like I'm his spawn to just talk to when hes bored or football isnt on. Whatever.
I got my coveted Swarovski job, by the way. I've been there about 2 months, and already am the highest selling employee there. The paycheck is fat, the discount awesome, people cool as shit, and incentives enough to make me want to never leave. Yayness for angela.
Anywho, there is more to write about since the last post 5 months ago, but my fingers hurt.
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